"Mama, he’s already seen me"

This boy... 

He endures more physical pain on a daily basis than I could ever imagine, but he perseveres through it so well.    As he’s gotten older, he’s obviously been more aware of people’s responses to his cerebral palsy or being deaf and it hurts... sometimes maybe more than the physical pain.  Most of the time he endures through it well and sometimes, it just hurts.   

It is difficult to watch both as his Mama & Daddy.  The difference between us and him at this point is that we have 24 years of experience enduring it (not the physical, obviously, but the mental or emotional pain that can come with responses to your child).  Justin doesn't remember everything just as a lot of kiddos don't, but we have told him story after story.  Praise Jesus, He's helped us to look to HIM and the IMMEASURABLY MORE that HE CAN DO instead of focusing on the pain.  

&&& HE'S DONE IT YET AGAIN & Justin being 24 has experienced it fully!!!

During the end of July, August & September, he worked for a local school district hoping to get to be on and work on equipment since that is what he loves, went to college for, and is actually very particular and good at doing.  Due to probation periods, he spent the hottest days of 2020 walking school campuses picking up trash and blowing off sidewalks and walkways.  Before you get upset reading that much like Mama and Daddy struggled with, consider how Justin himself endured it well making comments like "I'm at the bottom of the list and need to work my way up."  After a few weeks of it, it was obvious his body physically was just not going to withstand it, but while he waited for prayers to be answered, he continued to work because he doesn't use excuses EVER.  Blows my mind & humbles me often!!

About a month ago, Granny "just happen" to find a company on facebook to come give her an estimate on some dirt work around her pond.  She "just happen" to have to leave on an emergency (everything is fine now..praise Jesus) but it resulted in her asking Justin if he didn't mind meeting with  him and taking him to the pond to discuss what all needed to be done.

After riding back up to the house on the gator,  they stood and talked on the drive way for a while.  Justin ended up asking him if he happened to be hiring.  Chad immediately answered yes and gave Justin his card to call him the next day to schedule an interview while he could look at his calendar.  

A few days went by and Justin said to me at dinner one night "Mama, I feel good about this... he's already seen me."  

It took me a second to get what he meant.

My heart... 

it was my first time hearing him say anything out loud & acknowledging that he knows he gets treated differently.   He wasn’t mad at anyone.  He wasn't angry.  He wasn't sad or having a pity party.  He was just looking forward...   He said "I've been to many interviews where I am more than qualified.  They are nice and say they will call me, but they never do.  Chad has already seen me." 

&& once again, God uses Justin to teach me a great lesson.   He was showing me "Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Phil 3:14 

I've not met Chad yet, but I've thanked God for him every single day since.  Justin went to the interview- they talked for over an hour about all the things.  His pay is incredible, they have benefits & he gets lunch brought to him every day.  He couldn't wait to get started & this smile just buying all the shirts to get ready...PRICELESS!!!

He's been at work for two weeks,  and was asked "because you are such an asset to our company, I would like you to take classes to get your CDL" last week.    

WHAT?!?!  IMMEASURABLY MORE just keeps coming over and over!!  WAY MORE than any of us could imagine or ask!!!

&&&Because God is just TOO COOL....yesterday, I got to watch Justin work with my own eyes because they are on Granny's pond now.

YES, Justin drove & used this crazy big piece of equipment!!!  He got the truck that brought it in the gate safely (YIKES!), helped him unload this excavator, saw to it that he got out of the gate okay, and climbed up in this John Deere and had the TIME OF HIS LIFE!!!   

"God is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us to him be glory"  Ephesians 3:20

It is hard..so hard sometimes to endure the difficult times.  I believe with all my heart that mindset about the hard is everything.   I'm not always good with it, but praise Jesus, that doesn't stop God from working.  

Everything we go through either weighs us down or lifts us up.  We get to choose.  We can choose to focus on Jesus and know He is working for our good.  WOW! What amazing things He can do!  Tears of joy roll down my cheeks as I'm so very grateful for the hard... it's made these moments and this smile so

incredibly amazing!!